Our Waldorf Homeschool Journey

John gave me a huge Christmas present of an easel, oil paints, etc. Which at the time I thought wow, that’s so awesome of him… what I didn’t put together was how awesome…he knows I’ve been going through a bit of a dark space and he knows me well enough (he met me when I was 20 years old), well he’s known me my whole adult life. He knows my fears and my joys and my sadnesses. I’ve been fed lies by my adoptive parents for my entire life, so he knows how much honesty means to me as well, so I’ve never hidden things from him. That’s why he knew I was heading for a dark space…he also knows the therapeutic effect that drawing and painting has on me.

 For years I wouldn’t touch a paint brush or pencil. I’d draw or paint with the kids, but only for their amusement and not engage myself in any way. Finally this year I felt brave enough to start drawing again, and attended a watercolour class. I thoroughly enjoyed the colour theory aspect and the excercises, but watercolours are not for me. I love acrylics, oils, pastels, and plain old pencils!

I needed to do the watercolour class, and I studied Dr Steiners lectures on colour (very interesting) to be able to unblock whatever had stopped me from drawing, painting etc. Well it worked…So thank you John, if you read this. My pencils, and easel and stuff are keeping me sane, they’re helping me heal. Bless you, my love. xx

Here is the first preparatory sketch I’ve done this week for an oil painting, small (4 x 6″)

 

Now I’m going to finish my tea and get my canvas out and start to sketch the pic on there. We’re having a good holiday, I needed it, to get my life on an even keel. I always do too much, filling every day for the good of everyone else, but I dare not think about me. If I stop to think/feel about me, I want to cry…so… that has had to stop. I have to think about me now and what I need and what I want.

Filed under: Anthroposophy, Waldorf Homeschooling on December 29th, 2009